One of the first things that Pedro de Alcantara noticed about my playing during Monday's lesson is that I need to develop my potential to play loud and beautiful. I knew this, yet have never moved far in this direction. Playing quiet fits the meditative aspects of the music that comes to me, with the exception of the introduction in Scattered Hearts. The interesting aspect of Pedro's comment was that I when he explained this in the terms of having the latent ability within me to play loud, I understood this on some level and trusted his musicianship enough to begin working with this that night.
Throughout this week some part of my practice was devoted to a loud improvisation. Why does loud denote reckless and even a certain ugliness in my expression? Perhaps because when I play loud finger style on an acoustic guitar, it takes enough force that this act throws me off balance? Thursday night while improvising loud, an interesting musical idea surfaced. I had fun with this idea and allowed it to develop. Finishing practicing after 11pm, I resisted blogging and went to bed. Last night I again investigated this idea and watched as other aspects of my recent improvisations began to inform this work. Tonight I again spent 45 minutes or so on this one idea alone.
Besides the forte introduction, faster playing has been introduced into this particular piece. Where this will end up, I do not know. I sense the music and am following, listening to what is needed and letting go. Enjoying the moment of discovery and the presence of music whispering.