Thursday, November 29, 2012
Rough day at work today. Thursday is my busiest day of the week and the moment I arrived the challenges began, changed, & persisted. C'est la vie. Fortunately I have tools, a path to bring me back. So I returned as did the challenges. And so it went.
Arriving home I hit the floor for an Alexander Technique lie down. Aptly called Active Rest, tonight required a constant but gentle guidance of my attention to come back to my body and release the unnecessary tension. My mind drifting away, then a moment of noticing to direct my thoughts back to the body, back to the present moment. Slowly the tension melted into the floor.
Rising I went to my guitar and began a gentle inquisitive improvisation. Intrigued by the melodies that arrived I continued to explore the possibilities, moving beyond my usual responses. After 25 minutes I took a small break.
When I returned to the opening melody I decided to turn on the tape recorder. A little over 2 minutes later I turned it off. Almost immediately I dove into another uncharted improvisation which was spirited but led nowhere. And then another, enjoying the musical challenge, that again led nowhere.
Pausing, I used an AT negative direction in a sense of " I am not an improvisor." I began exploring again. One beautiful arpeggio followed another. And then another. Such a precious moment as I allowed this musical idea to come out. Listening; releasing; and being open to what might arise, a sudden energetic shift occurred in the music and myself.
I spent the next hour exploring, prodding, and being delighted with the act of playing my guitar. Without concern. Without pressure. Just with.