Friday, February 15, 2013
Fear. Always fear. Why?
There is a piece that has been whispering to me for years. Recent listening to various recordings from times when I have been actively working with this piece, has let me hear that there is music there. Even a beginning, a middle, and an end; just not all on the same recording. Tonight when I was working with this piece, the struggle to pick up these parts by ear frustrates me. And this frustration invites the sprouting of fear.
I'm not good enough. I will never figure this out so why not let it go. God knows what else lurks beneath. Ah. Now that's out. Returning to one of my favorite GC aphorisms We begin again constantly, I set the guitar down, breath a bit and return. Knowing that gentle persistence will yield a few more notes and something positive to build upon. To give in fear is to perish.