Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Not Holding Onto Love
A friend is suffering from a loss that is so difficult to understand and process. While words offer some relief, I sense that much more is needed. I'm not certain I have what is needed. But I do what I can. Tonight as I sat with my guitar practicing AT inhibition with "I am not holding onto my neck" I thought of him. My intention was to play Gathered Hearts as an offering to his suffering. After inhibiting the movement of my arms to the guitar, I brought them to her. I was about to offer up the direction "I am not playing the guitar" when out of nowhere "I am not holding onto love" arrived.
I repeated this thought and then began to play. Towards the middle of this piece a mistake arrived that could have disrupted the flow, but I thought "Love does not hold onto mistakes." After I completed the piece I thought "If only I could live my life with this way?" Then with thought of another person and another piece, I began to play and let it go again.