Showing posts with label letting go. Show all posts
Showing posts with label letting go. Show all posts

Friday, April 10, 2015

Letting Go of the Good Stuff

How long did it take me to learn to let go of mistakes when rehearsing and especially when performing?  Hold onto a mistake while playing and more will quickly follow.  As I prepare for Sunday's gig at The Electric Maid,  I've gotten caught a couple times with the good stuff.  Phrases that I've worked on for weeks sometimes longer have been coming together nicely.  Playing them within the context of the piece the anticipation anxiety of this part coming up has lessened considerably.

But I noticed yesterday and then again this morning, that I sailed through a couple of these difficult spots, assumed a rather smug inner attitude and thud, flop, fizz other notes suffered.  Let go, let go and let go.  Of the good and the bad.  I am reminded of the first line in the Dhammapada - all problems arise in the mind ... and so it goes.

Photo by Todd Hryck

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Use of the Heart

35/365


At one point while playing this evening,  I found myself leaning into my guitar rather than allowing the guitar to come to my body.  In this slight motion I had a sense of my heart grasping the guitar.  Sounded poetic in the moment and my thinking continued well all achievement comes from a striving within the heart and soul of us.  But then, I recalled the old adage " If you love something, let it go."

Yes this seems to be the use of the heart in my pursuit of music.  Loving, letting go of expectations, outcomes,  and desire.  Then, just maybe I'll arrive in the present moment, guitar in hand and music flowing.  Just maybe awareness will spread and another be affected.  There is only one way to find out - let go ...  And then when I find I am holding on again - let go.  Again and again for an eternity or maybe for just now.

Are you letting go?

Friday, April 22, 2011

Letting Go

So don't sing me the songs about the good times


Rain came to the area today, so while I'm still congested, my breathing is easier.  A delightful dinner with old friends tonight, friends who used to live around the corner.  Today they cleaned their home in which they raised a family for the final time.  On Monday, new life will enter this space and make a new home.  Letting go, moving on, all part of this life.  I'm happy that they are with us this weekend, to allow our home provide them a familiar space in which to be, as they complete this phase of their life.  After conversation, they moved to rest and I to play.

After warming up, I did some work with the Etude in 7, and then began to just play.  A melody appeared. And then the melody lengthened taking me on a journey for an hour.  Teasing me, urging me to find the space within the melody, within me.  Let go of my desires, just be with the notes that I had.  Slowly a possibility for the next section appeared.  Playing with this, wondering if I would be up late, taking note of what the muse was offering.  A shift of mood with the piece came out.  A good shift, one that let go of what was already established.  Recording what I had, noticing my tiredness, I decided to let go and trust that the muse will return again, as long as I do.  Slowly I am learning there is a time for rest, a time to let go ...

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

. . . . . Five Approaches

Letting go ...
       
                  Allowing ...

                                        Watching . . .

                                                            Waiting   .   .   .

                                                                                Wondering.