Monday, August 13, 2012
I Am Not A Student of the Alexander Technique.
A difficult beginning to my guitar work tonight. Too much chatter as I was playing through a piece just to reconnect with it. I moved on to review Stepping Stones which I have not played in weeks. I was having problems cleanly executing some of the opening passages when I returned to working with inhibitory or negative directions. Employing "I am not holding onto myself", I then returned to "I am not a guitarist" as I have found much freedom with this combination.
Then out of nowhere, the thought I am not a student of the Alexander Technique arrived. I held this for a bit and explored playing the opening passages some more. As I continued to hold this something was definitely shifting in my body. Perhaps years of "trying" to get it right was being let go. I was just sitting on a chair with guitar in hand. No position was being assumed, and my body was just responding to the directions in a different way that yet felt right.
I took a break to do an AT lie down. While on the floor I continued with "I am not a student ..." From there I moved to "I do not know how to use my arms." As I lay there on the floor with this thought the release of unnecessary tension in my right arm was noticeable. I am not sure what happens within the mind body system when these "negative directions" arrive but I do know that something happens. Something within the system is shifting.
I returned to the guitar working with these two directions. Just as I began to play, a bit of chatter erupted in my mind. I replaced this with the thought of "I am not a performer." The mind quieted and the playing was beautiful. I think there is fertile area for me to explore these further in the coming evenings.