Sunday, February 1, 2015
Slowly I Turn
This is how change enters into my life - slowly, thought by thought. Am I directing those thoughts? Thoughts come and go, many of them unnoticed. But when I slow down, observe the flow of thoughts, and interject what I want or even need to be thinking, well then life gets interesting. Possibilities open. Habits now stand a chance of being redirected.
Beyond slowing for the various moments of our life when we pause, I need an ongoing slowing to watch and direct those thoughts. To step out of the race to check items off the list and ponder, even evaluate what, how, I am undertaking an action or process. When the what is guitar related, I have a clear sense of directing the how, but in this afternoon's practice I found myself asking why I was pursuing a certain exercise. When I clarified the why, the internal struggle relented. This was accompanied by a slowing down of thinking; better focus on what I was doing.
However this remains a process, not an event. Step by step ...