Sometimes I need to take a journey into the unknown. Lately much of my travels into the unknown have been through the Alexander Technique. Certainly this is not a bad place to question and investigate for my long term musical health. But then sometimes, there is an urge - for something new, something different.
Yesterday I played with the negative direction of "I am not a guitarist" again. A slight stripping away of pretense and permission for myself to not move right into an established mode. I followed this with "I am not a composer." Certainly I am not trained in a traditional music school, yet I do create and perform my own works. For the sake of being open to change, to life, I continued to direct my thinking away from any usual pattern of thinking and using myself.
Then the intention formed - To create a love song.
I had fun exploring what arrived yesterday, and returned to this tonight. Something was missing though. What was missing? Come back to my body, find my feet, release my length. Revel in the good news that the search had begun. The decision to go and embrace uncertainty, wade through the muck, and be in the process. Breathing in, I let go of yesterdays idea, and began again. Breathing out I explored. Then a triad built on fourths, followed by another appeared; and I heard what was there.
A musical question, one of intrigue and this question was pulling me along. I played this 30 seconds of notes for my wife and she heard it also. I was off. Listening to the question and searching for an answer. And then another one. Reformulate the question and listen, search, and listen once again. A form was found and the ideas taped. Now to rest, to listen again tomorrow. To search, to question, and to listen; ready to let go and step out into the unknown again.
What questions await me? What questions await thee?